I posted a few weeks back about my verbally and emotionally abusive husband, and whether people had experience of change for the better. I spent some time reflecting, took on board some of the advice here, and decided (mostly) to leave. I work ft, husband is sahd, and we have 2 ds 3 and 5. Ds, who had been remorseful and repentant, went nuts when i said I couldn't take it anymore. He is back to his angry and controlling ways, accusing me of leaving the family, destroying our sons' lives, etc. I have stopped engaging which at least keeps the screaming down. I am just torn. My head says I need to leave but the thought of only seeing my boys half time at best and less at worst is destroying me. Last night dh told me our 3 year old was screaming and crying at nursery for 45 minutes - very unlike him. The kids are upset and unsettled and the atmosphere at home is terrible. I am wondering whether to try counselling (together and separate for each of us) to try to work things out. I feel like it won't work and like I'm being further manipulated but I can't bear the thought of hurting or losing my children. I need advice please.