Just need some advice and support in this big decision. I have 2 older teenagers and a ds of 5 yrs with my dp. We dont get on well. He has no sex drive or affection much for me. He has disassociation disorder and ignores me half the time. My self esteem is low. I am unhappy with him and wee argue a lot. He has got violent a couple of times and is generally a very angty man who has few friends his own age. He seems to befriend older placid, passive men at the local pubs. We struggle financially, and he is very irresponsible with money. He used to gamble and lost a lot. When we have an argument he packs up his stuff and leaves and does not contact me.
I have got to the point when i know it will happen again so have decided this is it. I feel it is right and know it will empower me to regain self esteem and control. He is very controlling and manipulative and not supportive.
Dreading being on my own as i have done it before with the older two kids. Have been needy but now have to seize the bull by the horns and go.
Responses greatly appreciated. Thanks.