He decided one day that he had had enough of his job, went to see a few agencies who promised him work, so on the strength of this jacked in said job. Work didnt materialise with agencies. I stepped up, as partners do and paid eveyrthig expecting it to all be ok in a couple of months. It wasnt, he had no proper job for the best part of a year. As time went on, I just kept pulling money from out my arse, paying for everything with him telling me how supportive I was yadda yadda yadda.
This month was exceptionally lean, to the point where there was noooo money for me to feed the kids. The strain of it all, not unreasonably, is showing on my face, coupled with feelings of increasing resentment. He doesnt like the way my face looks and the fact im not ' happy' and 'chatty' and wanting to have sex. He forces me to tell him whats up, so I do. I tell him I feel like a loser because I cant feed the kids my dd asked me to buy her a winter coat, I couldnt, she needs school shoes I cant afford and my other dd has 2 pairs of shoes but they are too small. He tells me 'you need to be happy'. How? I have £30 in my purse and the worry of trying to figure out how to feed 6 people for a week with that is actually making me tearful. He then says this is all your fault, you should save your money to buy food. I go to two places. Work and Tesco.
The reason I have no money is because I have spent it all at Tesco. He then tries to dismiss me, telling me he does not want to hear anything I have to say, after he practically forced me to tell him what was on my mind. I got so angry I punched him and he went for me. He didnt hit me but grabbed me by my clothes and was throwing me around. I left the house. When I came back about an hour later, he had packed most of his things then left. His brother came for the rest this morning. I dont even know why i'm posting this really......