he has left, am devastated even though he was awful. struggling to cope please help

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Cant believe he has gone it hurts so much pain is unbelievable.

Its strange as the marriage was not gd for a long time with him being physically and emotionally abusive. I was trying to build up strength to leave but wasnt quite there yet and he beat me to it.

But rather than remember the bad stuff all I can think of is how much I still love him and miss him. Doesnt help that he has gone to his mums where he has company and support and I am stuck alone every evening and have to deal with all of dcs stuff alone.

Also not that we did much but all the family weekend stuff is now impossible and just having that security of a partner even thougj he was a crap one and made me feel shit most of the time

I am just finding it impossible to cope cant eat or sleep and dont have much family suppport, actually none and most of friends are busy with their own young families.

Dont knoww what to do with myself

Please any hugs handholding much appreciated

Dont know how have managed to get them to school and nursery this week

Be kind to yourself. This wasn't how you planned things but the important thing is that he is gone and you are free - although it may not feel like that at the moment. He's done a real job on you and it's going to take a while for you to realise that not only can you cope without him, you will flourish.

Good luck x

You don't know how you managed to get them to school and nursery.....but you did. Well done. One foot in front of the other, hour by hour, day by day. Ask your friends round in the evenings if they're available. Think if all the bad times and remember you deserve better than him.

Have you arranged contact access yet? Don't forget he should be helping out- give you some time to rest and get your head together.
Be kind to yourself xx

The early days are hard love, but it does get easier, you will find things a little less difficult as time goes on.