I am mad, sad. I met this guy last November. I did not want a serious relationship. My first marriage was abusive. I am shy. Not easy for me to meet men in general. He said he did not want a relationship. He wanted to date. He went after me full throttle. A beautiful proposal. My family loved him. I believed in love again. He began to say 'things are good the way things are '. I grew more insecure. I caught h in small white lies. We broke up. I was devastated. He was extremely nasty toward me. Now he wants to be friends w benefits. I still love him but know he is not good for me and I need a lot of distance from him. My wound is still open. I need to heal. Encouraging words would be appreciated. Oh. And being in New England for another long winter is just wrong. I stayed here for him. Now I am stuck here. Thx new cyber pals!!