I had a male friend move in with me for a while, we were friends with benefits and sort of did what normal couples do whilst not being in a relationship. The main reason for that was because I was too messed up at the time for a relationship and he was aware of this, but he stood by me anyway, needing somewhere to live and I think he enjoyed the female company. We shared the bed every night and I never felt awkward about that. He knew there was someone I was close to in a FWB kind of way and he knew I used to go and see them, he would talk about different girls and would go out also. we lived together til I lost my home. Last night me and him had a chat on whatsapp, sort of went like, do you think you could be with one girl, him saying yes, me saying just not me and him saying he never said that, and me saying well when we lived together you were seeing other people and him telling me nope there was only ever me, I know feel incredibly guilty that I let him slip through my fingers when I had the chance and that I was going to see someone else, which must have been hurting him. I wish so much that I hadn't now because he is the only man to have ever stood by me and been there no matter what. He still is. He says its ok, but I don't think it is