Hi. I have posted here about my marriage crumbling. I live abroad and know plenty of people but don't have any close friends here. I work ft and none of my colleagues have any idea about my marriage breaking down. I have had sex about once or twice in 6 years, neither a hug or even a little hand squeeze. There is a guy at work who is very kind. I am so unused to this behaviour it has really sent me off. I can't stop thinking about him, I fantasise about being with him and I feel really awkward around him. I suspect he has picked upon this. He is divorced; I only mention this as I wonder whether he has an inkling that I am kinda lonely :( and feels empathy/sorry for me. I have 2 young kids and can't leave the country even when divorced. How can I sort my head out and stop embarrassing myself? I blush, which makes things even worse.