I'm a long term lurker, first time poster.
Apologies in advance if this on the wrong topic forum. I did'nt know which one would be the most appropriate.
Basically, since about Christmas time I have had a on/off massive crush on someone famous. I say on/off as it kind of petered out for a while but it has over the last month flared up again. I seem to spend a lot of time googling him in an attempt to find out everything about him etc and also daydreaming about him.
I feel a bit pathetic because I am a 32 year old mother of 1 DC, not a 14 year old....
I know that it is all in my imagination etc, that its a bit silly and illogical and that if I met him in real life, he will of course be totally different to how he is in my head (as it is of course just a figment of my imagination). I just can't seem to help myself.
I thought the relationship thread might be the most appropriate place to post this as I have mentioned this crush to my counsellor (who I have been seeing for almost a year - I had an ugly separation from my child's father and also a history of shitty relationships and needed therapy big time) and she said that I should'nt beat myself up too much about having my crush because it is less about the celebrity and more about my aspiration for a happy, healthy relationship with someone.
But tbh, through out my adult life I seem to have developed sometimes quite long term crushes on people in the public eye. Perhaps unsurprisingly they always correspond to times in my life when I have felt lonely etc.
I suppose the purpose of my thread was to ask whether I am weird to have crushes like this at my age or whether other people have them too post adolescence? I can't admit to anyone in RL about this as I feel too silly and have no idea if other people do this too?