I have spent the last year or so putting my energy and passion into a relationship which has recently ended, I was a bit surprised that I am mostly relieved but looking back at what an arsehole he was at times it's not surprising really!
What I have realised though is that I don't think I have either the emotional mindset or the motivation to pursue a traditional romantic relationship. I have two lovely children and don't want anymore. One of the things I really struggled with in the last relationship was sharing the parenting, he didn't have any children and whilst sometimes was great with them he could also be antagonistic and very fussy, meant I had to deal with his temper tantrums as well as theirs!
So I am escaping the love issue, dropping the act that I want to find the 'one' and reigniting a brief passionate affair that I had early last year. I will do this my way and enjoy some great sex, some good conversation and not get bogged down by society's expectation of what relationships should be about.
There are a lot of threads on here about the problems and heartache caused when relationships break down, I have been there and got the divorce already so thought I would post about my decision and update you on my journey trying out an alternative route.