Just that really. Years of on/off good bits and lots of bad bits, splitting up and getting back together about five times and each time it going sour after the initial euphoria wears off. Lovely dcs that deserve better than the shit parents they've been given.
I feel ashamed that he doesn't love me enough to stay and be a family. I am scared of always being the one who has to deal with everything.
I know we have grown apart, in my heart I know I don't love him as I should either so why am I not relieved its over? I can't stop crying, can someone just tell me I'm being silly??