So been really good at keeping exp away from me and not in my house. Until yesterday he took our dc out for the day cinema, his mums and his best friends and I felt like shit the whole time he had them because usually he wouldn't of bothered with any of that if I wasn't coming. He came back with food for us all bathed the dc and put them to bed.
Then I put a film on thinking he was going (it's been really hard to get him to see he needs to take dc out on his own terms) and he snuggled up. Afterwards I started crying my eyes out and we talked and its never going to happen again!
But deep down I want it to because I miss him and I wish I hadn't got rid of him.
He was a cocklodging Disney dad with his other dc and loads of other issues but I feel so fucking sad right now. I just want him to man up say he's sorry and let's work on our issues instead of fighting and never resolving.