Insecure and no reason to be feeling rubbish :(

[feelingsilly123]

Hello everyone
I'm new to this so please be kind!

I have been with my boyfriend now for a year and a half. He is so lovely and my family and friends all adore him as do I. Compared to my past relationships this has been a very easy ride.

There is just something so silly in the back of my mind. My boyfriends previous relationship of 2 years. They broke up 3 years ago and have no contact as they broke up on bad terms. I do know of the girl as in to say hello to but not friends at all.

I seem to have become obsessed with the fact he previously was in a relationship , which is so stupid because I also have been in a relationship too and he does not even bring it up. I find myself tormenting myself, when I see her on facebook I feel so inferior. I also torment myself with asking him stupid questions, like oh did your ex meet this member of ur family did u do this. I feel so stupid and I just feel pathetic. I don't know why I think like this. It's sort of like I wish I wasn't me and I wish I was her???

I've just re read what I have typed, I sound pathetic and I know it is. Just wondered if anyone else has ever felt this insecure?

Hey, well this could be my life story, so to answer your question yes, I have felt this insecure.

I think you're pushing a self-destruct button; you almost WANT him to turn around and say "yes! She was amazing" so you can prove yourself right. Do you think you have low self-esteem/confidence?

I don't think you need me to say that this will push your DP away because he'll get sick of having to explain himself for having a previous relationship.

And don't forget the old cliche - she's an ex, he's with you, so logically there is nothing to worry about. Logic doesn't help with emotions though!

Good luck x