I don't want to dwell on the back story as to how we came here, because I don't think that helps.
DP and I are in the process of splitting. I have a nearly 3 yr old DS, not 'D'P's. We have been living together for 10 months or so, after over a year of being together, but it's not working out. I moved about a 40 min drive from my parents, where I was previously living to be with him.
It's hard. I'm really upset and don't know what to do.
I feel truly heartbroken, ashamed that I made the decision and it hasn't worked out and that I have let DS down and let this affect him, ashamed that I will have to let people know, gutted that I love him, but that we can't make it work and he can't show me the affection I need, scared about what happens next, and what I will do.
I'm struggling financially and have some debts. I can't afford to move right now so am stuck renting with ExP (which I will call him from now on) until I finish off paying a loan in a couple of months.
But then where do I go?? I've started to make a life round here - DS is in a lovely nursery and I have started to make friends round here. But it's fairly far from parents and other family, although no friends where they live.
Do I stay round here, or do I go? Will I be really lonely? Won't it be very hard being away from my family? How will I afford it?
On the other hand, would it be really bad to move DS's nursery now? I could probably stay with my folks, and save some money.
I wish there was someone who could just hug me and tell me everything was going to be alright, and make the decisions for me. Anyone got any advice?