The Pyscopath is starting again?

[CCTVmum]

If anyone knows me please dont out me. To frightened to use old MN name.

It has been a wonderful few months or should I say nearly a year of peace. No trouble at all since 2012.

I had made plans with help info from here. My main goal to move to be free from any more threats to my and dc life.

Told by mortgage advisor I do not earn enough. They asked did I get maintanence as this counted as wages!

As I dont I thought I would apply as ex doesnt live in UK. I was 100% sure CSA would just say ex moved abroad and close case. I have not heard back from CSA mind you so this could be the outcome. This was 2 weeks ago.

Anyway my senses have gone in overdrive last few days and cant sleep. I decided to check ex blog and low and behold! The title refers to me. His NN for me since we split. The most freaky thing was ( so not even the demonic voice put on) was a weird american sounding childs voice (possible digital enhanced?) of child referring to ex using the nickname I had for ex when we were together (many many years ago).

ex names a night of an attack, but it refers to via FB?

Now thing is if I go to the police they will lock ME up thinking I am nuts!

Welcome to Gas Lighting Infurno

Any tips/slaps/hugs welcome as my PTSD has returned 10 fold! But hoping the hypervigilence will keep me awake\alive

I always use a little prayer when I have a long journey or difficult journey to make....

'I surround myself with the white light of love and divine protection for all eternity in all directions of time'. You can substitute 'myself' with 'my home', or 'my car' or whatever you need. I also picture being surrounded in a white light, as big and bright as possible.

This is also a great website and I am sure that someone on there will be able to put your mind at rest further:

www.spiritualforums.com/vb/

All the best for Saturday. I will be on line and sending you love and protection (as probably the rest of MN will be lol).

Thank you myroom and Sunshine for positive vibes and have a fab weekend away Sunshine in the sun.

I hope what he does do repeats on him big time.

Lovely WA woman didn't think I was talking rubbish either!

Thank you GB.
I am favouring WA at mo. I will see how I feel by Sat as I may feel much stronger by then as getting support through this.

I'm so glad the WA are able to help, and that you won't be alone on Saturday night. :)

I wont be alone on here as this is psychological fight not an actual physical and as long as I got support from here I think I might well cope. I don't know if I should run away! As long as I don't have any weird stuff happening or Buffy Vampires LOL I should be able to cope and ride through the fear....keep remembering he can only hurt me this way if I allow it.

I will see how I am on Sat with WA Sunshine as it feels so daft as the man isnt even in same country...so why would I feel frightened? Gotta keep reminding myself of that.

:) You're right, it's definitely a psychological battle. It sounds as if you are feeling more confident.

Burning dried white sage is supposed to cleanse places. I know your home probably doesn't need it, but if you were to burn a small amount of sage at doors and windows and have the fragrant smoke wafting around, it might help you psychologically.

I don't think we're going to be around on Saturday night, otherwise I'd keep vigil with you too, but I'll be thinking of you from the middle of a field somewhere.

(Oh, and he's not a Wiccan. They are essentially peaceful people; one of their beliefs is that spells done for harm against others or for personal gain will come back to bite the caster.)

YYY to using spiritual protection!

A circle of white light around you and your house (and loved ones) is powerful. Just visualise it every morning and night... (or whenever you remember).

Ex knows I am looking and getting a right laugh out of making it up to frighten me. Thanks GB for finding that out for me. So yes battle of the minds Sun!

The vibes will defo help Jux and Maria will do all helps to protect us both.

You sound a lot stronger for having people listening to you. good!
FWIW I don't think it's running away to go away for the night. You'd be having the last laugh as he'd be chanting away to an empty house :) It's also lovely to change scenery every now and then!
But do what you feel is best, and take your precautions. It's a tough job to stand up to people harrassing one, but it does make you stronger in yourself (once the shaking and sweating eases... :) )

You sound awesome CCTV

Just come here from the other thread, thanks OldLadyKnowsNothing IMHO your ex is not a high priest, he is mixing up too much so he doesn't know his stuff. He is trying to frighten you, and it's working. If he believes this stuff he is dangerous, but I think you know that.

Can you go elsewhere for the night? I have a futon that is quite comfortable.

The bells thing is odd, they are usually used to scare away bad spirits, evil, other forces that can hurt. That's why they are in churches and rung in some church services.

The prayer thegreenheartofmanyroundabouts gives on the other thread is a well known and used protection.

I would go to the police, tell them you know you sound mad but your ex is unstable, believes in the occult and you believe he may try to harm you on Saturday. If they ask you how say he might do a bit of chanting (you can laugh at this point) or it may be physical. Ask them to do a drive by a couple of times that night.

I will be looking up some protection spells and burning white candles for you on Saturday night.

Sent you a pm.

Oh for heavens sake.

I don;'t think feeding into the OP's delusions is going to help her AT ALL.

Ive been reading your threads for years and I firmly believe this is all a paranoid delusion. You have no proof of anything involving him at all. Am I right in rmemberingteat the 'attacks' on your front door were you finding some scratches and deciding it must be him?

That you have never actually seen him near your house, just a car you thought might be his, maybe?

All your threads are full of menaings you've invented for song lyrics or words. It's IN YOUR HEAD.

Stop reading his blog, go to the GP and ask for help.

This is not the behaviour of a mentally well woman.

..remembering that. Not sure what happened there.

Protection spells?

Really?

Yes, protection spells, really. If nothing else, the placebo effect is valuable.

Hi, CCTV. How are you this evening?

Hi GB

I have Pm'd you.

Very tired. Going to call 101 later as their was a man hanging round earlier just starring down my street sat on wall of a house that was empty.
But that was more to do with bulgary worry than ex.

Ex worry is tomorrow eve.

Hugs lovely xxx

As I said, I'm not on t'internet tomorrow night, but I will be thinking of you and yours.

Heh, I've sent you two interminably long replies! Should keep you busy for ten minutes

Poor you, you are hypervigilant, aren't you? Still, that's no bad thing if it's helping you spot potential burglars. But it is exhausting, being on the alert all the time. Hope you manage to snuggle up warm & safe, get a decent night's sleep.

I want to everyone here for their support and replies.

I call it divine intervention but a change of family circumstances and I can now stay with my mum until Monday.

So if the ex wants to torch the house I have insurance and sending an evil presence I wont be home phewie! Seriously I was terrified although laughing now still very shellshocked!

I want to thank NoToast as I know how hard it is for you and Sunshine go away and enjoy in peace I am safe OLKN for your offer to come and stay with me and GB for gas lighting the evil turp which has resulted in removal of the evil filth and hopefully forgot about his FB plans of Satanic rituals tomorrow pm few others who PM'd me too who I will not name to respect confidentiality many .

All the others on the spiritual thread too thank you!

I'll report back tomorrow but I am sure to say I am going to have a fab nights sleep as truly exhausted and drained from this.

Don't want to jinx it but hopefully this particular situation is over!

I will keep you updated...please keep the prays and positive vibes going to ensure my son and I remain safe not just tomorrow night but for many years from this sick, evil bully.

I remember you.

Look, I the nicest possible way - you did this a year ago in July, looked up when he earned etc and were told and advised to not go near him/not pursue any claim etc.

DO NOT CONTACT HIM. (including via CSA etc)

He sounds truly evil. He feeds off this kind of crap. What possessed you to try to get money from him? Look out for yourself - you do not need this stress! And agree about looking at blog he can probably trace IP address or some such shit.

Reading this thread is like the way you used to feel all the time. You deserve to feel better than this.

Glad you are away for the weekend. Look after yourself.

Sorry for the slight hijack but how do you go about tracing someone's IP and what does exactly an IP tell you? Surely not the name and address of the user?

I used to have a widget on my blog that gave details of who had looked at it, their IP address, their country, city, Isp. I could also see which pages they looked at and how long they spent and I think the browser they were using too.

I remember OPs previous posts and I have to say I'm inclined to agree with WayHarsh. By actively seeking out his blog and other info you are giving him power over you, you do not have to read his bullshit posts or listen to what sounds like really bad death metal or whatever. Continuing to do so isn't vigilance, it's choosing to seek out what he is doing and then allowing it to scare you. he only has the power over you that you are continuing to give him.

Theone, to trace a persons ip you need to run say the email header through here whatismyipaddress.com/ip-lookup

Good luck CCTV an sending you lots of positive thoughts
((((hug))))

Continuing to do so isn't vigilance - No, it's hypervigilance: a PTSD symptom. 'Choosing' not to be hypervigilant is, regrettably, a long & complicated process.