He went away last week and is due back tomorrow. I dreaded this week as I really thought I'd miss him but I've found that I don't. In a way, I'm dreading him coming back. His constant moaning, his piss taking, the way I have to act all clingy to get any kind of affection from him, the way if I don't initiate it, he comes nowhere near me. I've not actually missed all that.
Every time he's been away before he's promised to text and keep in touch and has ended up having such a good time that he's seemingly forgotten my existence. Even the time went away on the weekend of my birthday pissing it up with a lad half his age - he knew I didn't want him to go and promised he would keep in touch. Instead he sent me one text asking if I'd set his mate up with a single friend and then gave his phone to his mate for the night who sent me a text from it saying "suck me off, I'm so horny". I had to go to bed on this text assuming it was meant for someone else.
So this time he 's all "I promise ill keep in touch" and he actually has ... But you know what, I can't be arsed to reply. I treat him as he treats me on this one occasion and all of a sudden he's sending me tons of texts "I love you" "why you not replying?" "You hate me :-(" "you ok darling?" "You're not even missing me" etc etc
Stings like a bitch doesn't it, mate? To make matters worse he didn't clean his Internet history properly before he left and I see that on Thursday morning, as soon as I went to work at 6.30am (ffs) he was straight on the net watching hardcore porn. Yet he's never in the mood for the real thing.
So yeah, I find I'm not missing him. No doubt he'll come back tomorrow and ill fall back into the pattern of needing him around but right now, I'm just not missing him at all :-(