I haven't even bothered with a name change.
I have had a rocky relationship with dh since we have been married. He's never shouted at me, never argues or openly treats me badly. He is moody and grumpy and often makes me feel like I've done something wrong but will never tell me what it is.
After dd1 was born he had an emotional affair with a woman he had slept with previously to us meeting. I didn't know how long this went on until we went on holiday together last week and he told me 2-3 months.
We went out earlier to the park with both dds and were trying to find a certain street, I went to google it on his phone and noticed the history had been deleted. I asked why and he told me to stop being silly, I knew there was something dodgy so I persisted and told him if he didn't tell me I would walk out. He admitted he'd been looking at porn. The thing is yesterday I popped out of the house and when I got back the curtains upstairs were closed and. Thought it was a bit odd. He was looking after our 4yo and 7mo at the time and this was the moment he'd chosen to take himself away and look at porn. So I've left.
He had told me he was going to find a counsellor for his moods and to work on communication, his family are awful and I know have contributed to the way he is. Nothing excuses the porn though, how do we get past that? I don't think it's something I can.
I just don't know what to do.