OK so I've name changed for this.
I'm having a crap week had a really lonely weekend end which culminated in finding out that ex - we broke up 8 months ago - and someone I backed out of a competition - it probably wasn't but felt like that - to date both have found other women and are declaring their love for them everywhere - well the evil that is Facebook!
Now I know logically that in both cases I did the right thing but it just seems like I'm being kicked when I'm down.
I'm feeling really sad that they managed to find someone and I still haven't got anyone in my life - had a brief thing which I ended as I wasn't up for being a fwb.
Total irrational but feeling pretty unloved and unlovable :(