I think it's over

[Dumpylump]

And that makes me sad, because I'm probably going to be on my own now for the rest of my life. But our relationship has deteriorated to the point where I just can't see us going on as we are.
Dp tried to initiate a conversation about it yesterday, but it quickly descended into an argument about which one of us were "to blame".
He thinks he hasn't done anything wrong, but has "plenty of things that he's not happy about". I think that if you've tried to explain over and over again how you feel about something, and why you feel that way, and the person you're explaining to just doesn't get it....or doesn't care, then there comes a point where you stop trying to explain, and close that door over.
It is so sad though, and I do still love him.

Feeling for you Dumpy - but please don't think negatively about 'the rest of my life'. You could well find that this is just the start of things, it being so constricting to be in a bad relationship.

Do you have DCs together? (That being an extra concern.)

No dcs together, although we both have children - teenagers - who will be upset too.

How long have you been together?

4 and a bit years. I lost dh 9 years ago, so dc and I were on our own for a good while. Dp was a friend first.

I don't want this, and I sense he doesn't either, but I don't know how we can get back to where we were. It all just seems too difficult. Things that have always been problems, but we could manage, now seem insurmountable.

Counselling?

I would....not so sure about him. I could ask I suppose...nothing to lose, is there?

I would ask. You said that he tried to initiate a conversation yesterday so maybe being able to have one in a better environment would be helpful.