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Making him love me again

38 replies

RubysDaughter · 08/08/2013 14:41

Last year I discovered my DH had been "sexting" a so called friend of mine. Devastation, heartbreak and shock were all rolled into one and I never ever saw it coming. I was so happy before I found out and thought we were happy. He called it a "Buzz". He said it just "happened"
That was a year ago and my God its been hard. I have been walking on eggshells since then and all I have wanted is him to love me like he used to. He says that he wasnt happy. Now he says he loves me but deep down he is not happy and he cannot tell me me why as he doesnt know why he feels this way. I can dry at the drop of a hat. Even thought I am on the verge of breaking down at times but I have kept strong and live in hope.
He always text me he loved me. That stopped when all this came out
Then he started texting me again these last few months telling me he loved me only when I told him I loved him
I crave his reassurance that we are going to be okay but as a result of me constantly looking for this reassurance, last night culminated in a very honest chat with him saying that his head is pounding with me "keeping on" I am devastated but I can see what he means. I just want him to show me affection but being a "blokes bloke" they dont always do that do they. So I told him I understand. Told him that I will back off and chill which I will. He understands me being suspicious about his mobile phone, he also understands my need to know where he is all the time BUT I seriously need to calm down otherwise I will lose him. Three lovely grown up children and a long happy marriage was the norm until this floosy started texting him as her marriage was broken down. Men get their heads turned, I get that, but the hurt and desperation left behind is just truly heartbreaking.
I feel relieved in a way today when I woke up as I now know what I have to do. Be calm and just get back on with life. But I know I will always feel worried. I just know it.

OP posts:
AnyFucker · 08/08/2013 19:19

Yes, it's a real shame this stupid bloke threw away his relationship

Except he hasn't because his wife will do literally anything to keep this booby prize Sad

ImperialBlether · 08/08/2013 19:25

I just wondered how she had his number in the first place.

OP, when he got the first text (if that is how it happened) why didn't he come to you and say, "Fucking hell, look what X has sent me?"

Did you read the thread where the OP's sister's boyfriend sent her a photo of his cock? She showed her husband. She didn't reply with her own set of photos. That's what happens in a normal healthy relationship.

I know it's easier to blame her and yes, she does have to accept blame too. But he's the one who should have come to you instead of responding to her.

AlpacaLunchYoubringyourbooster · 08/08/2013 19:57

If you go the other woman OP he will be rubbing his hands in glee at the thought of two women fighting over him.

Please don't give him the satisfaction.

Optimist1 · 09/08/2013 06:37

fif669 - I respect your opinion, but the assumption that a replacement will make OP happy is pathetic.

Optimist1 · 09/08/2013 06:38

(I mean that she can make herself happy without having to find a replacement man.)

Walkacrossthesand · 09/08/2013 07:51

Yes, all this 'leave him and find someone better' stuff is misguided. Leave him because he's treated you badly, shown no remorse and you're better off without him - but 'finding someone better' is not what it's about.

DelayedActionMouseMaker · 09/08/2013 08:08

WHY do you love him? Seriously, you need to ask yourself what it is you are gaining from this relationship aside from a lot of pain and insecurity. You DO need to back off, hard, and regain your own life, sense of self worth and perspective, because this man is taking you for a ride and you are letting him.

fifi669 · 09/08/2013 08:40

My point was less about going out and getting someone else to feel better, more about having the confidence to know if all else fails her DP isn't the centre of the universe. She has options.

moonfacebaby · 09/08/2013 09:02

Having been in your position but after my exH had an affair, I would advise you to tell him to leave.

I turned myself inside out trying to understand why he did it & it was such a shock as I didn't believe he was capable of it. Our DD2 was 6 months old at the time & trying to salvage our marriage felt like the right thing to do as I was frightened, confused & didn't understand how we'd got to this point.

All my scurrying around, trying to make sense of it, fed into his sense of entitlement. He claimed to be confused when in fact, he was just a weak, self-absorbed coward - too spineless to admit that he was at fault & his coping mechanisms were the problem. He wanted to blame the affair on our marriage & rewrote history to justify it.

Now I am several months on from kicking him out, I sometimes cringe at how I was. It was what I had to do at the time but I would never do it again. If someone shows you who they are, believe them. The lack of love & respect that is shown by having an affair is terrible & if after having one, they aren't remorseful & prepared to do anything to make it right, then they should go.

I have coped. I have learnt that I am much stronger than I thought I was & the divorce ball is now rolling. I am in a strong position where I am going to get spousal maintanence until I am on my feet as my DD2 is so young. I am going to get 80% of the equity from the house as well as all my divorce costs paid my him.

The exH - in his words, his life is 'depressing', he is riddled with guilt & shame.

Get him to leave. Build your life & remember that you are worth much more than this weak, pathetic man.

Good luck.

Cherriesarelovely · 09/08/2013 09:45

So sorry you are in this horrible situation and so sorry that you feel so bad about yourself. I agree with pretty much everyone else though.....the only chance that this might work would be if your DH was absolutely bereft, and "riddled with guilt and shame" as Moonface says above. Even then I don't know if I could forgive someone for it but I couldn't even begin to think about it unless they were absolutely contrite.

KateCroydon · 09/08/2013 09:57

I'm in the minority on Mumsnet as I don't think affairs are necessarily that big a deal. Not being genuinely remorseful after is a big deal though, and blaming your partner is a huge dancing red flag as is blaming the other woman/man.

Are you married? Are you earning? Planning for independence is a good idea even if you want to stay together.

BelaLugosisShed · 09/08/2013 11:36

I see OP's not been back

OrmirianResurgam · 09/08/2013 12:23

Relationships can be fixed after an affair but only if the unfaithful spouse is sorry. I don't think yours is. I am sorry. It must hurt x

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