So its been a few months since my life changed
For better and diffrent (not worst hopefully)
There was a few false alarms one serious one but slowly Im starting to believe it
When you loose something in your life what is the most important thing soon you would realize how much you miss the day to day things a really daft one
Like going for run dancing or even wearing particular clothes
I still have not been able to do all that stuff
but I managed to go for run
The freedom(when you run) it is amusing thing
It wasnt that perfect for the two next days but still..
Even putting on your favorite trouses (I know how pathetic it seams ) but
And the rest
I do realize that some things I wont be able to do it really scared me at first and now just make sad
But Im still to scared to celebrate
Even if I moan so much less and even smile little bit more
Im sorry if my post its little bit strange
Ive allways had been very pessymistic person consider cirumstances very cynic as well or just a weirdo
Im scared what if
It will get worst and I dont even know or is it going to be just better and better