I'm sitting in my room crying so really need some perspective. I can't gauge whether I am being ridiculous or not.
I live a long way from my family and have not seen them for over a year. I have travelled to stay with my parents for three nights along with 2 DC. I have always had a fraught relationship with my mother.
My sister has also come to stay with her family. I get on well with my sister. I would describe us as close. My sister has a good friend who over the years has ingratiated herself into the family. She has also travelled to the city we're in with her family. I had no idea until Saturday that she was doing this.
I struggle with this woman for two reasons. 1) she was very dismissive when I lost my son at 23 weeks, 2) she acts like best pals with my mum - calls herself the extra DD and is always asking why I don't get on with my mum "because she is so lovely".
Today is the anniversary of my DS stillbirth. I would rather not be here but it's the way the travel plans fell and so I'm trying to make best of it. I was under impression we were going for quiet pub dinner: parents and sister + DCs. About an hour ago I was told this family friend is also coming.
I was already aware that we were going out as a group tomorrow night - I was told earlier today.
I just feel I'm too fragile to cope. I don't need my mum and this woman being in my face about how mutually wonderful they are. I can't face having my feelings trashed and dismissed.
I want to just leave but I know it'll be perceived as having a tantrum. I don't know what to do