I dont know what to do, I have an 8 month old daughter with my partner, however i am just not happy with him anymore, it started off great but went downhill. We live together but i feel as though he is not here as he wakes up and runs out the door ,then he comes back late at night and doesnt even hold his daughter for more than 5 mins, he ignores me locks himself in the living room and plays games and smokes till 6am then comes to bed and disturbs our sleep.
this happens everyday same routine. Im sick of it. when i talk to him and how i feel he fixes up for a couple of days then goes back to doing that again, i feel as though i am going around in circles with him, But Its hard to leave as i have already left my family freinds and moved far away, now i have noone just HIM for SUPPORT. without him i am entirely on my own although he is not much help i feel as though it is better than nothing especially financially as he helps with shopping and bills sometimes. I dont know what to do? will i cope on my own with NOONE and i mean NOONE No friends or family. I already suffer from depression so im scared it will all get too much if hes completely gone?
and will i ever find someone who will love me and want to spend time with me? im scared of ending up alone. but he makes me feel so unloved and invisible as he doesnt talk to me or even notice me, even when i try to look nice for when he comes home and cook him a nice meal he doesnt even look at me just eats then goes on his computer and ignores me :(
im starting to feel as though there is something wrong with me!
and part of me still resents him as he did not come with me to one hospital appointment while i was pregnant, i really needed someone as i just lost my mum and sister who were always there for me but he chose his friends over me :( so i was walking around alone with my big preggo tummy with noone, even the antenatal classes i asked him to come, ended up going alone, i still remember how embarrassing it as as there was around 25 couples then there was me on my own :( it makes me sad.
sorry for loong story i have noone to vent to.
What would you do?