Hello there,
This is the first time I have posted. Have felt for a year or so that I'm not in love with my husband anymore, we have not had sex for almost year, there is no affection, just pecks hello and goodbye. Within this year I've made attempts at affection, but have recently given up as I wasn't getting any response. He is a great dad and I love him in lots of ways just not sexually.
About 5 weeks ago I started messaging an old friend (he started) and they became more frequent and sexually explicit. I found myself so drawn in and the guilt drive me mad. So last Wednesday I decided to tell dh that my feelings have changed and that we should seperate. The usual happened, he stormed out and didn't get back til late. The next day, things had calmed, he didn't go into work so we went to a pub to talk things through. He says he does still love me passionately and wants to have sex, he also thinks that I have changed due to my taking citalopram (it does make me feel numb and I don't give a shit about anything). There was so much said, but now I feel back to square one. Neither of us have left, we went out as a family yesterday (we have 1 dd). He said he'd do anything to keep me, so I'm taking dd on a weeks holiday to get some space. Can I fall back in love? I'm still thinking about my old friend and what could've been had we met up (the messaging has stopped). Sorry this is long I'm feeling so troubled.