My DH had sex with someone else in our house, five months ago. I got home from work early for once, and found them in a post-coital state on the sofa. She is the mother of his youngest son. (Their relationship was over before I met him, before anyone asks.)
I left him, but I did go back after three months. We had a really good relationship before that happened, I was totally in love with him. I didn't want to lose him, and he was very remorseful. There was a lot of heartche and introspection and hours and hours of talking before I went home.
He insisted it was the only time he cheated on me, and it would never happen again. He agreed to whatever measures I needed to take to feel secure with him again and he understands I don't trust him now.
I really want to get past it, and move forward but it's still on my mind every day (it doesn't help that we still have the same house and same sofa!) I'm paranoid about whether he lied - the first time I ever got home early from work and I caught him cheating on me for the first time? I love him, but sometimes I feel a wave of hate for him out of nowhere. And sometimes I don't want him touching me because I can still see him cuddling her. He has lost patience with talking about it. He says I can't keep throwing it at him all the time.
But how do I stop thinking about it? I really want to know how to draw a line under this!