Cheerful hey 
NC for this one
In a nutshell, divorced due to DH affair. I was a SAHM and am now a single parent to 4 children. I realise I am very lucky as DH supports them well financially and time wise.
But as for me..I just feel so bloody lonely. Bone crushingly, weary, needy lonely. It's coming up for 2 years since the divorce and I haven't dated once. I gave myself 10 months before I even looked elsewhere and then found that there was nowhere to look!
I'm still young (late twenties), in reasonably good shape, intelligent, well read etc etc. But I just cannot get past the single mother on benefits thing, it's like an invisible shutter goes down as soon as I mention it. One man I'd been talking to at a social club said "oh so you do nothing then?" when I replied to his "what line of work are you in?". Same thing again tonight, I've been chatting to a lovely man at my gym for about a mth. It got to where he seeks me out if he knows I'm there...we had our first indepth convo tonight (usually just normal chit chat), he asked if I was working tomorrow and then the whole "well no because I have a very little one at home so I don't work at the moment" speach happened. And I could SEE it, he changed instantly at the mention of kids/benefits, then left about ten minutes later with just a quick wave.
I feel such a need for some physical human touch (the kids cuddles and kisses keep me going!) I was actually considering booking a massage just to feel some kind of physical connection. I've had 4 one night stands over the course of 11 months. They were great, good sex, respectful but that's all they were. Not one asked for my number or showed any inclination to see me again. I didn't want them to but the fact that they didn't still hurts!
I feel doomed to a single life. I start at uni in Sept so at least I can say "student" instead of "not working". I'm feeling increasingly lonely and this next bit will sound horrible, but a male acquaintance who I don't really know much turned up and asked me if I fancied going for a drink. He is about 30 years older than me and has about 4 teeth (I REALLY wish I was exaggerating). It just made me feel worse and I know how that sounds!