Hi. I'm new to Mumsnet. So to start with 'hello!'
I'm in a bit of a pickle. I've been with my partner for near on 8 years. I've come to the desicion that the relationship has come to the end of the road, for many a reason. I feel that i have worked hard within the relationship and i appreciate i'm not perfect, but its just not working anymore (i don't live with him now, i moved out last year after living together for 5 years - to give us space to work on the relationship).
My predicament is that i agreed a few weeks back that i will go on holiday with my OH. He wanted to go away for a week whilst my boys are at their dads and i said i'd agree to 5 days. He wasn't happy but accepted it. Trouble is, i should have said there and then that i don't want to go, as i really didn't, but i said i would to keep him happy as he would have been hurt had i said no.
Anyway, i realise this was not the best thing to had said to him knowing that i was thinking about ending the relationship, but i just haven't been sure i want to end it until now.
I've been having counselling and talking about the relationship, and looking at it as a whole (he refused to come with me to any counselling saying we're fine, but if you feel you need to go then go).
So now i want to end this sooner rather than later as i don't wish to prolong the hurt for either of us. Prob is i don't know if hes booked the hol or not. If i ask him he will want to know why. Now i could tell him why, but i don't wish to do it over the phone or within the vacinity of his or my children (we both have our kids this weekend). The only other nearby opportunity i have will be tuesday next week.
But then what if hes already booked the holiday? Then i'm stuck, unless i end it and we still go but as friends (awkward). So in a muddle really and not sure what to do for the best? x