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reporting historical sexual abuse-has anyone here experience of this?

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thepixiefrog · 29/06/2013 11:04

I need to report it to get some 'closure' for want of a better word. The abuser is in my town and I'm frightened of going to certain areas in case I see him, I can't even drive down some streets because his house is near and I have to take a really long detour.

My therapist is very sure that the resurfaced memories are accurate due to the nature of them. They are very emotional snippets of him doing something sexual to me. There is not linear narrative and I don't know how many times it happened, but apparently this is not a problem when historical abuse is investigated.

I can give my therapist the details of what and his name and she can report it for me, which takes the responsibility away from me for a bit, but I would like to hear from someone who has been through this.

If anyone has been through this before can you please tell me what I can expect? Was there a prosecution? Did you have to go to court? How has it made you feel in the long run I.e. do you regret it or was it worth while?

Ta.x

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thepixiefrog · 29/06/2013 17:25

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JumpingJackSprat · 29/06/2013 17:35

I have no advice im sorry. these people might be able to help www.napac.org.uk/ thinking of you x

thepixiefrog · 29/06/2013 18:07

Thanks jumping. I've been on that website, I just wanted to make direct contact with someone who could empathise rather than read second hand information from a website. I appreciate your response nonetheless.

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NothingsLeft · 29/06/2013 19:16

No personal experience but a friend reported sexual abuse almost 20 years later and got a conviction.

It was obviously a difficult time and she had to go to court etc but he was found guilty and sentenced. Turns out this was his second conviction for a similar crime. In fact he was still working with children Shock I think others victims came forward too.

It helped her deal with it. It was confirmation that what happened was wrong. It also turned something she felt shame about into something to be proud of. I have absolute admiration for her for being brave enough to go through with it.

thepixiefrog · 29/06/2013 19:29

She sounds amazingly strong. I think if I go through with reporting/court etc. and there is no conviction I'll have to move away. I don't think I can get used to the idea that I may bump into him taking my DC to school, or in the supermarket. My therapist did point out that if he has done something with me he is likely to have tried abusing other children too. He has two adult dd's and at least one gc. It may be that a few complaints have been made already and that my report will add to a collection of evidence. Or it may not, and that is what I am most worried about.

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juneblues · 29/06/2013 19:59

You would have to expect that the Police may only be able to investigate to a limited extent if you cannot give concrete details and you are the only person to have made statements about that person, as CPS need to have a sound chance of conviction for it to continue further. It's hard isn't it? I never got closure until my father died really, I do have occasional guilt pangs when I think of the cousin looked after my my mother when he was little, he's now about 18 years old.

thepixiefrog · 29/06/2013 20:25

Sorry fore what happened to you, June. The Abuser is not yet retired, so he may be around for years to come yet! he is not a family member or even a family friend anymore, so I don't have the same emotional complications that you have had to deal with. Thanks for your reply, it has helped Flowers

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NothingsLeft · 29/06/2013 21:59

My friend was very strong.

She's had a bit of a shit life really and I do think doing this changed things for her. She has managed to gain control and move on a lot with her life.

It obviously a very personal choice as to whether you proceed or not but don't feel you wouldn't be believed. They took her seriously from the start.

thepixiefrog · 30/06/2013 07:50

That's very comforting, nothing. Flowers

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Purple2012 · 30/06/2013 08:09

I don't have experience of this but I do have experience of people reporting this to me.

If you do go to the police you will be believed and you can do this in your own time. So if you go to police and report it they will at first just take basic details. Then you will be asked to do a formal statement. You don't have to do this straight away and a specially trained officer will do it.

You will also be offered support/directed to people who can help you.

It may not go to court. This doesn't mean you are not believed it just means there isn't enough evidence. Lots of people who report historic abuse take years to report it and then find that just being spoken to and believed helps them move on a little bit. It is a kind of closure.

I would try to not worry too much about the outcome of your report and take it one step at a time. If it ever becomes too much you won't be pressured into continuing until you are ready.

Tesselation · 30/06/2013 09:48

Hi pixiefrog. You have motivated me to register after 6 months of lurking. May change my name at some point though. Random choice due to alt-J on the radio.

I'd back up what Purple2012 says. The police were very good with me and when I didn't want to prosecute left it on file saying to contact them if I changed my mind.

In my case my abuser was my father who I hadn't seen in 30 years so my motivation was very different from yours. I wanted to know he didn't have access to children and that if anyone else had reported him over the years that I could help their case.

The initial phone call was very difficult. I was having counselling but it didn't occur to me that anyone else could report for me. I asked for a specialist in sexual abuse in a strangled voice and was transferred straight away. I then spoke to a very matter of fact female detective and she was patient but unemotional which worked well for me.

This was followed up by a video interview. Again very difficult and emotional but kind of an exorcism for me. They are trying to get the maximum amount of detail from you and check consistency so the questioning was very repetitive. I think maybe they switch to this as a relief from the gory details. So they wanted exact position of body parts which even now makes me cry to think of. But they would then switch to asking about position of furniture in the room or who else was in the house and these more mundane details were a relief to talk about after the other.

The evidence was then passed to the police in the area the abuse took place who tracked my father down. I had phone contact with the officer in this area and also email which I found easier since it didn't matter if I cried.

The police in the area where my father now lives then interviewed him. I spoke to an officer on the phone about this after. Think it was the officer from the area where the abuse took place. She asked what I wanted to know and I said just that there had been no other complaints and there hadn't and that he didn't have access to children. She let slip that he was an alcoholic and implied he was so far gone no one would let kids anywhere near him. Result.

I had told them that he had abused my sister over a much longer period and they did ask if I could get her to speak to them. She said no but was very happy to hear my father was in a bad way. Since I didn't want to press charges and I'm guessing it would have been hard to get a conviction on the evidence they asked if I was happy to leave my allegations on file and for them to take no further action at the time.

For me at that point I had achieved what I wanted and I then wanted to focus on working with my counsellor on sorting out my complicated feelings towards other family members.

So for me it worked well. I got closure. I didn't have to go to court. I had some control and my abuser lost some. He knows that he hasn't completely got away with it. He probably wonders if my sister will report him and he would get charged. I like to think that he worries about that happening but he probably just has another drink.

On a note of caution - I had been slowly falling apart for a long time before I went for counselling (best money I spent in my life ever) so the process of reporting didn't make much difference. I was already off work and crying most days. I don't think I could have gone into work the day after the police interview and each contact with police was hard.

That was about 3 years ago and I have changed job and put myself back together. I'm not quite who I want to be yet but I feel like I'm getting there.

Good luck with your journey pixiefrog.

thepixiefrog · 30/06/2013 09:56

Hi Tessellation, the questioning from the police sounds a bit like an interrogation. I just don't have that much detail to give. Did you feel under pressure from the officers during the questioning, or was it just having to revisit the abuse that made it difficult?

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BringOn2014 · 30/06/2013 10:18

Hi Pixie, I dont have any experience to offer but been glad to read this thread and here to offer a hand to hold.
I am in exactly the same position as you. I cant fully remember the abuse though just snippets which makes me think it would be to difficult to report because theres not much I can tell them. My abuser apologised to me years later which I think would support my abuse claim but I dont know if he would admit to the apology do it could be my word against his.
I have thought a lot about getting hypnotherapy to get a clearer picture of what happened but I just cannot afford it right now. I want to be able to report because I hate the thought of him getting away with it.
On the other hand my abuser is an old, very ill man and it probably wont be long till hes dead and I know he feels guilty (hence him apologising) but I dont know if thats enough for me.
I hope you are able to come to a decision soon and are happy with the consequences.

Tesselation · 30/06/2013 10:48

Hi pixiefrog. There were lots of details I couldn't remember either - eg. I am still not sure if it all happened on the same night or on two (my mother was in hospital for 3 nights).

The police officer who interviewed me didn't make me feel bad for not remembering but she did ask the same question in different ways which I guess was to try and trigger fresh memories.

It was an interrogation but not a hostile one. I could understand why she needed to ask but I had spent many years trying not to think about the details so it was a bit of a shock to the system to be trying to remember. It did seem to lift a bit of a burden though as it was at a level of detail that I'd never told anyone including my counsellor.

I didn't feel "under pressure" but the police wanted the maximum detail I could give. They never made me feel bad when I couldn't remember but they did ask a few times in different ways. I felt like "well they're the experts. That's probably the best way to get as much detail as possible."

For me the biggest motivator was getting something on record so if there were past or future allegations from others it would start to build a picture. So the amount of detail I could give was irrelevant. It got recorded by his name.

BringOn2014: from my own experience I would say you will have a much better idea of what you want if you don't try and decide on your own. A counsellor was great for me as she was there to listen to me, present alternative ways of thinking, had no axe to grind and was completely confidential. I would have found it much harder to sort out my emotions if I had only talked to family or friends.

The fact that your abuser is old and ill and feels guilty really should have no influence on your decision. He didn't think about your position when he made the choice to abuse you and you have no responsibility to think about his position now. Do what you think is best for you. This is the kind of thing my counsellor really helped with. My abuser showed me no respect or compassion and I really didn't "owe" him any in return.

thepixiefrog · 30/06/2013 13:25

I'm so grateful that you guys have come here and opened up. Bringon, from what I understand from my psychotherapist hypnotherapy is not considered a healthy way to retrieve memories. Apparently they are not particularly accurate, and the emotional repercussions are potentially very traumatic. My memories have come back on their own after 18 months of therapy and I've recently been on a meditation course. I believe the memories resurfaced as I am now much more emotionally robust and ready to face them. I didn't ever particularly talk about the abuse during therapy (I knew something has happened, but not what or by whom), just worked on other issues and anxieties.

The best of luck to you.xxx

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