Have remembered who my abuser was. feeling a bit rubbish.

[thepixiefrog]

I saw him on Friday in the town where I live. I haven't seen him since I was about 9. It was near his house.

Yesterday morning I remembered an event and that it was him that did the horrible things. I was upset and started to cry, and went upstairs to find dh 'cos I needed a cuddle. I was fine for the rest of the day, and all of today too. I just told dh about what upset me yesterday and now i'm eating a double decker in bed and I don't care that it's nearly 10:30 and that I've already cleaned my teeth.

That's it really. Just needed to get it out.

xxxx that's all I can contribute

((((hug)))))

Have you ever spoken to anyone about it? Do you have good supportive people to speak to now?

I have fantastic support in dh, therapist, dsis etc.

I'm OK, just need to feel sad for myself for tonight, then I'll pick up tomorrow.

Thanks for your messages.

((((hugs)))) from me also.

Great to hear you have solid RL support.

Difficult to formulate the right words....just wanted to tell you you are so brave and I'm so glad to hear you have great support. You deserve it.

Hope you enjoyed your double decker! Take very good care of yourself. Xx

Ime there are very few things that aren't made more bearable than a cuddle from your dh and chocolate in bed xxx

From not than

Oh that's still not right ffs, you know what I mean OP

OP, I'm so sorry that happened to you. Is there any way you could report what he did?

I don't think I should report it. Having slept on it I really don't trust the accuracy of the memories. I'm really concerned about the possibility that my brain has 'filled in the gaps' and created a false memory in order to tie up loose ends.

I need to give myself time and see if anything more comes back to me. It would be horrendous to accuse someone of doing something so perverse as child abuse when they are really innocent.

Is it something you could discuss with your therapist?

I will, I have an appointment tomorrow.

Ok, hope out goes ok x

It! Stupid poohing

Phone!

Ffs

your phone has made me giggle so you can't be too angry with it!