Urgh feel disgusted with ex

[neverdoingthatagain]

Divorced 1 year in and ex h in his head thinks he's doing the right thing by the kids. Sees them every couple of days for an hour or two. Rarely takes them out, pays for things etc and I know I am very resentful but I hide it.

Thing is, he is suddenly 'in love' with 3rd girlfriend since split. He also had an affair while still married and was 'so in love' with her who was 24 and he 40. Urgh he just makes my skin crawl and I hate having to see him. All his exes have 'done him wrong' and he is not at fault at all. Why does he keep getting all these chances?

I feel disgusted with him as he is so deliriously in love and I have no one. I do have fantastic rl friends but I will never get that in love feeling again. He killed it for me. He was red flag man from the start but I fell deep, hard and quick and I hate myself for believing every lie out of his mouth.

Just rambling but feel bile in my stomach.

He's a a bit of a twat, then, and you shouldn't be troubling yourself about what he's doing/why these women keep falling for it. I know that's easier said than done! (Especially if you have to see him a lot for contact). Focus on your lovely children and a new life. Why do you think you'll never find love again? Have you ever had any counselling?

I mean counselling since the break up of your marriage, by the way. I know I'd feel pretty messed up by that. It's not your fault for believing his lies, it's his fault for telling them. Please don't hate yourself for it.

He's completely put me off men. All the bullshit that I fell for. People now saying that they knew he was a complete twit and bs artist. All his past relationships ended v badly etc. Well if I'm so intelligent why did I fall for it? Why did I believe in every thing that came out of his mouth? I doubt everything that I thought I was. I don't have time for counselling, 2 kids, work, ill parents but I read heaps and talk to friends.

He just left one day when his mother was staying with us for a holiday (from OS) with new 4mth old baby. He had gone for 3 days with no explanation and I had to say to MIL, look what do you think is going on here? She was in complete denial that her golden boy could do no wrong.

Yes our relationship was very bad after the first 18mths but I kept trying. I kept believing that it would work out. I am really angry about it all now. People believe he is the happy go lucky Irish musician and I am the b$tch who dragged him down. I financially supported us for most of the relationship I feel like such a mug. I thought I was over it all and could move on but I have to see him all the bloody time and now he's got these moon dog eyes about his new gfriend. Oh God and the kids will have to meet this one too.

I can't even look him in the eye. He truly makes me ill.

Yes I do focus on the kids and think I need so anti nausea counselling!

some anti nausea counselling

What's that quote? You can fool all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but you cannot fool all the people all the time.

He concentrated his bs on you so that you'd get hooked.
Others could see it, but not you with the bs screen he put out on you.

You believed him because we tend to trust people until they screw up.
It is not your fault.
And not all men are bastards like this one.