so i get up early and take dh and ds to work becuase the twins are off school and i dont need to see them off to school - its not out of my way. but meant i was at work for an astounding 8.10 am this morning. they thought i pissed the bed 
come home early - cos i was in early. sat down for 10 mins and started to teach dd and ds how to knit ( in a straight line is all i can do)
dh then phones up - he's knocking off early so i go to pick him up and bring him home a 20 mile ish round trip. ok no problem.
dh reads a report that i did in the car - very nice of him - correcting my poor grammar becuse i want it to be shit hot for when i hand it in tomorrow.
its all good.
get home ( again) finish casting on for dd and showing them both how to knit. ds gets pissed off so i tell him to start the tea. stick some chicken things under the grill.
dh walked in and sat straight at the computer. then barks at ds about how much he is cooking, then exasperated start shouting " thats not enough" " i'll eat sommat later " fkinell they have ate all the bread greedy gets, have ate all the bread today." shouting and pissed off becuase he wont get a decent tea. so i starts shouting at him for his shouting ( i know i know ) we end up having a row - where he repeats stuff he said in a row we had last night - certain phrases like "you schizoid cow" and stuff like that.
now the way i see it - i was doing a family activity - he just had to help ds with the tea. not shout - but show him what to do. but no. he sits here at the computer and barks and shouts at him.
but i am in the wrong. am not right sure how i am in the wrong at all.
its got something do do with - he is allowed on computer becuase i was knitting.
he wasn't shouting at all.
i'm schizoid and mad.
am just a bit unhappy - like you would be after a row.
now theres this after row routine. he doesn't speak to me so he can say i am a nutter for shouting. even though he acccepts withdrawing and not speaking is as potent as shouting.
so now he expects me to shout until i sort it out.
and the corker - the cherry ont he cake is that he turns into superdad in the after row period. and i withdraw.
and my arm hurts - which isnt helping - an additional moan. i pulled something months ago and its just getting worse. and cant see the doctor as if i dont phone at 8 ( when i am driving them to work) i wont get an appointment.
thinking of going to a&E but frightened i'll get shouted at by some nurses and just burst into tears at my shitty evening.
it will get me out of the house for a bit anyway.
so rambled a bit there.
not sure what i'm asking.
will probably be ok later - but am just a bit sick of arguing.