He cannot get through the fking day without a fkin drink. It may only be 1 but he absolutely has to have one. He'll fk off down the pub while I go get ds1 from school. ds1 was at a friends house the other day, got home asked 'where's daddy?', i said down the pub, he said 'what...again?', then today he wolfed dinner down cos he had to go out at 430 leaving us sat there with ds1 saying 'why does daddy have to go to the pub all the time?'. Its one thing when it pisses me off that he's always drinking but when my 4 yr old son notices thats fkin saying something and he just thinks its cute that he says thats the green pub, thats the red pub, thats the white pub, thats daddys pub by the traffic lights. I think bloody not. He doesn't drink at home, but as soon as we have someone round, even during the day, even if they're on coffee or whatever, he has to crack open a beer. "friends" don't help by bringing some round then leaving it here.
I've tried every approach with him, threatening to leave, screaming at him, almost hitting him, being nice etc etc. When I have a go a him I feel guyilty cos he's on abnti-depressants cos he can't work after a serious accident and I try to give him leeway cos of it, but then he annoys me as there are people out there in far worse positions than he's in but he sits there feeling sorry for himself and it really annoys me. When I really have a go and get upset myself he will sop, but that'll last for abput 5 days, then it starts aghain, and I can't cry at the mo which really annoys me too. I'm a little calmer now after typing this - not swearing so much, lol! Just really wanted to have a scream and a shout...