We've been together about a year and a half and are just about to move into our first house together. Last night he told me he may have to go abroad for a week with work in August. I panicked like hell and it really put me on a downer - why? because I hate the thought of being apart from him and found myself wondering what on earth I will do without him for a week. Why??? I was happily single for years yet now I'm part of a 'couple' I panic at the thought of being on my own for a few days?? I've thought about it and realised that ever since we got together I've smothered him, done all the chasing, pushed him and rushed him - nagged him and kicked off when he hasn't text me enough - christ what the hell has happened to me?? I never used to be this person!! As a result of my mad behaviour he has got used to me always being available. He knows I'll do anything he wants to if it means being with him. He knows he doesn't have to try. He knows the ball is always in his court. He knows I'm a 'safe bet'.
Well it changes now. I've contacted my old sports club and will be re-joining that, two nights a week. I'm going to stop chasing, stop reacting to lack of texts, get a life of my own going again so that when he's not around, I'm not lost. How do you reckon he'll react to the new me? I don't want it to cause arguments and I'm not into playing games but it would be nice to see him making an effort to please me for once.
Give me strength please :-) any words of wisdom/motivation appreciated.