P and I have got to split up. I'm finally able to see he doesn't care about me, and that this is not ok. I've spent a very very long time thinking if only I did things differently then he would care, or trying to live with it but I can't do it anymore.
He's not abusive, just incredibly selfish. His needs come first, always, and I have finally managed to tell him it's not ok. I explained that all I need is to feel like I matter, but he can't or won't 'give in' and tell me that this is the case.
So, to get to the point, I realise it's over. I'm in a bit of a state, and have completely broken down in front of P- crying, shaking and feeling so upset that I'm not a bit out of control.
I think that the thought of telling DS (6) and ripping his world apart is what is horrifying me the most. I know in my head, and have read on here so many times, the reasons why us splitting up is best for DS- but my heart is breaking at the thought.
I absolutely will give myself a few days to calm down before speaking to him.
I can't pull myself together whenever I think about how totally confused DS will be, how devastated he will be for his family to be broken apart. He's a lovely, enthusiastic, kind little boy- P and I are his world, he will be broken when I tell him.
I'm crying at the thought of breaking him.
I'm sorry to sound so pathetic, I just need to pull myself together but I can't,
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Please help, I've fallen apart at the realisation I have to tell DS
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verygentlydoesit · 19/05/2013 23:01
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