Relationships make me act like a twat...

[superstarheartbreaker]

But mabe I am one anyway! I'd love to have a healthy relationship but so far they make me behave like this;
Needy, controlling, scared of abandonment, clingy, overlooking major flaws such as drug abuse etc, paranoid about being controlled and abused etc, etc....
The good things they bring out are: the fact that I am a good cook and like cooking for people, the sex which I love, the banter , my affectionate side, I am happy and chilled when going well.
I do get moods but when I am with someon emy PMT actually has an outlet; my dp.
When I was younger I was involved in an abusive relationship that nearly killed me. Mabe I am too scared to be in a relationship again but I do feel like I am sabotaging one of life's pleasures.

I self sabotage too. I can see myself doing it, but cannot control it.

What's the longest time you have been on your own?

So stay out of relationships for a while and work on your personal development, self-esteem and tackling your PMT symptoms. Don't be frightened to be your own woman rather than leaping into another desperate attempt to pair off. If you're a caring person cook, banter and be affectionate with friends .... have a healthy social circle so that, even when you are with someone again, you don't let them dominate your life.

I was the same, I would reflect and often found myself at fault. I am now in a healthy, loving and fulfilling relationship. This relationship has made me realise that, although I have faults, I was always with the wrong person for me.

My DP is patient, communicative and loving. I have not felt clingy, insecure or mental! I think it works both ways, if treated right, you're likely to feel much better and the relationship will be healthy