I have a couple of friends whom I have always considered very good / best friends, were very close, doing things together, nights out etc but since having children, have just been disappointed at the lack of friendship and support.
In the early years, I was always not doing quite as well as them, did not own my own home, lacklustre love life but suddenly, I met DP, bought a house, two kids. They are both single.
I used to live ten minutes walk from them both DP and I had to move away to afford a place, though only four miles in another part of town. This means when I had DC1, I didn?t know anybody and had no support (both parents being deceased and family too far away or not interested). They came to see me once.
A couple of years after DC1 I had a miscarriage, which I told them about (two other good friends knew and were supportive. ) They never asked me how I was afterwards, not a text or a call, nothing. This really hurt, because I was having a horrible time.
When DC2 arrived, again, no visit, I eventually suggested lunch so they could meet her.
They have turned up at birthdays when invited with presents but mostly, (there have been exceptions ie BBQs, dinners were I am one of a larger group maybe once a year) I do not see them unless I instigate it.
I had a bereavment earlier in the year, I told them, but did not hear anything from them. Not even how was the funeral, how are you. I did text one friend as we were due to meet up (yep, you guessed it, I suggested!) and said I was strugging and she just said ?you can always call me? . When she had a bereavement I sent a card asked how she was doing, checked she was ok, asked after family. I have not heard from her since as our meet up was cancelled.
I am due to see them this weekend, meant to be just the three of us for a proper catch up (I have not seem them since Xmas) and hear that one of them have invited a couple of people whom she is good friends with but who are not my friends. (I know them, but only se them at functions) DP thinks I should just go and it?s a night out but I find it real hard work talking to them, they are nice, but given I go out once in a blue moon, not people I want to sit and have dinner with . I don?t want to go, and am realising how hurt that they don?t see seeing me as a priority.
I should add that I do not talk about my children as I know it is not interesting for others to hear and once they congratulated me for 'being chilled and not banging on about it' . Thing is, once when i did say I was having a had time after DC2 and and life was a hellish, they still weren't interested.
I think I see these relationships as more important than they do. Part of it for me is that they have known me for so long, they knew me before children and I still like to hold on to part of me that was pre children when I see them, I?m still cerealqueen to them, not only known as ?minicerealqueen?s mum?.
Do I expect too much? Is it time just to let these friends go, in that we have grown apart too much?
Thanks for reading this far.