I think I need an outside perspective on what is happening to me !
I have been with dp nearly 3 years, moved in with him for nearly 2 years.
We have a very volitile relationship, arguments are frequent and to be honest normally started by me.
The arguing used to be over him texting and phoning a women "friend" which he was keeping hidden from me for over a year and I got really down about his lies.
An argument got so bad and horrible I got his phone a threw it accross the room - breaking it ( not something I am proud of) and he got me by my hair and pulled me to the front door.
Fast forward 6 months later, texts phonecall to his "friend" have stopped, he says he was cagey and defensive about it all, and promises
we will be happy and I can trust him, which I believe I can trust him.
But why can I not be happy! He gives me a secure home, and no real worries.
He tells me we could have a lovely relationship if it wasn't for me being so unhappy with him all the time, and I feel such a hassle to the relationship. I just feel so trapped though and like I don't no who I am anymore and I'm unsure of my own mind! if that makes sense?
There are things that just seem to bug me and I no they are stupid but
silly things, things that have never affected me in any past relationships.
I no I am exasperating him and I think this is making me feel really low about myself.
I just don't no what to do,
any help/opinions from anyone would be really amazing :)