Currently 28 weeks pregnant. DH deploys for 7 months next week. He has been away on a lot of foreign trips as part of training. Inspired by another thread I asked him if he went to a strip club when he was last away. Fully expected him to say no, but he had. And then obviously lied as nothing was mentioned at the time.
I should add I am not in a good place emotionally at the moment. Quite depressed, don't feel the "right" way about this baby which makes me me feel so ashamed and disgusted as our first baby was born after infertility and 3 rounds of ivf. Think feelings about the baby all tangled up with fear of this upcoming deployment.
So, after the big reveal I went upstairs he didn't come after me, apologise, or even think he had done anything wrong.
I feel betrayed and powerless and so upset. It's not like we have long to resolve this as he leaves next week. I am disgusted that he went to such a sleazy place, and then lied. And then not even brave enough to talk to me about it.
Not sure why I'm posting, just feel so utterly alone 