NC for this as I suspect I'm being really pathetic. I'm in my early 40s and I've had very few relationships, mainly because childhood wasn't amazing and I have separation anxieties and low self esteem wrt men, relationships etc. I tend to lose my boundaries in the relationship, get needy and panicky.
Thus I've dated a father figure, had two men cheat on me, and another two were emotionally abusive (luckily only saw them for a few months before it fell apart). That's about it.
So after two years of counselling I'm much more sorted out, and have a new boyfriend who seems lovely. We've been seeing each other for 3 months, and just in the last few weeks have been calling it an official 'relationship'.
Problem is, I don't know what a normal relationship is. I'm having a little panic because I think he's losing interest. There isn't a day that has gone by without him texting or emailing me, but the volume is dropping off, and he seems less excited to contact me or see me. He is out with friends both last night and tonight, without me, and I don't know when I'm going to see him again. I admit this dropping off phenomenon is only from Wednesday this week (we spent all Easter weekend together).
Come along and give me a slap if I'm being silly, or let me know if I should worry please. I know I should probably talk to him but I'm too nervous in case he's losing interest already (really don't know what I've done wrong, we had a great weekend last weekend) and that just ends up making it worse.