do I go back - not coping on my own

[rotool]

I have left emotionaly abusive relationship.
I went to a refuge in January. ex-p started court proceedings to get me back in the area so the children would return to their school and succeeded.
I moved in with a friend with my children whilst looking for a property. I have found a property and have tenancy agreement etc...I have no money as I lost my job when I left to go to the refuge. I have been turned down for a community grant. I get tax credits and have signed on at the job centre but get no money from ex-p and until financial hearing cannot get anything from the house. The new house is unfurnished and I can't move into it as have no beds,sofa etc.
Children have been spending the first part of the holidays with the dad and are coming back to me on Sunday expecting to be in the new house.
I can't stop crying, everything has gotten so hard.
When I went to the refuge I was told I would get so much help but there really is nothing out there.
I have swapped one crap life for another.
He wants me to go back, I don't know what to so, I don't feel as though I have much choice then to go back but I have spent 14 months trying to get away.

rotool I am in swindon. Tell me what you need.

I have bedding and towels that I can immediately produce and will help you find the rest.

Hello

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Hope things start to look up for you soon, rotool.

BESOM: look for one in your area...they will give a starter pack for a kitchen, curtains, some furniture and some actual real life people will help move stuff, gardening/ decorating etc. according to need.

www.besom.com

there is one in Basingstoke, Guildford and Oxford

Stay strong...i think we "met before"....you will come out the other side of this.

Can you ask school or any other agency you have contact with to apply to Buttle Trust for you for furnishings. Bethany also can help. Good luck.