I havent had sex with DH for about 4 months. I havent wanted to, Im not sure why but the idea of it makes me shudder and although I have tried to force myself to do it I just cant.
Dh was very understanding at first, but he has started to get more frustrated. He started getting a bit pushy about it and we ended up arguing alot over it and it resulted in him going completely the other way and showing no intrest in me at all.
I can understand his frustration and I know that he will be feeling rejected and unwanted. We have talked about my lack of sex drive and he has said he understands but I really dont think he understands how off sex I am.
I could try the whole candles and quiet night in thing but i dont want too. I really cant stomach the thought of it.
I realise that this will sound selfish but it is my honest thoughts. Im at a loss to what to do - can a marriage survive without sex?
We are friends and I love him but I am not inlove with him. I dont think I ever was but he was my first boyfriend and i mistook feelings of security and affection for love. I am not attracted to him in a sexual way. He may aswel be my brother. But its got to the point where I have pretended for so long that I am now resentful of him and dont even want so much as a hug.
I dont want to leave him - he is a great dad and we get along well. But I cant have sex with him anymore, it feels wrong and false.