Same old story, long time member under new username
Last night my long time partner sat me down and informed me that he no longer is "in" love with me and is leaving me and our two children (3 and 1) to marry a lady he has been having an affair with for almost a year. I am completely devastated for both myself and my children. I just feel like I am a failure.
To add insult to injury, I'm also 7 months pregnant.
Who does that? He literally sat me down like a child by their parent and told me he was marrying another woman! Why not me? it's so unfair, I'm the mother of his children, I'm the one who has remained faithful to him since I was 16. He was my one and only. I'm so deverstated, my head is pounding but not in pain, this has never happened to me before, it feels like my head is going to explode. Why would he marry her and not me? He always said he wasn't the marrying type, maybe one day but not now ect, but now his marrying her, living with and playing father to her daughter, not our children.
I guess I should of guessed, he moved to Oxford six months ago because he was offed a high paying job. That's where she lives, I should of known. But he still came home every weekend, he was still payed the rent, we ere still having sex. I thought we were an happy family in a unique situation. clearly I was wrong. I have no idea how I'm going to pay the rent now, I have no job. SAHM, he didn't want that but I insisted, why did I always have to get my own way? I'm not even sure I'm entitled to anything. We aren't married and we haven't lived together for half a year. Was that just careful planning on his part?
I don't know what to do. I feel so lost. I love him so much, why can't he love me? I would do anything to have him back, but he isn't willing to give it another try. He keeps saying his sorry, but she is his soul mate and they belong and deserve to be be togther. How dare he say that to me after everything we've been through.
I hate her. I insisted he show me her picture, I wanted to know who she was. I wish I hadn't. She's everything I'm not - Beautiful, skinny, educated, rich. I'm just a blob in comparison. No wonder she is getting the only thing I've ever truly loved. How could I ever stand a chance? I hate the thought that the witch will be able to see our children. Oh god, what happens if they have children?
How could he do this to our family? Our unborn baby? I don't want to do this alone? I'm hoping that when the baby is born he will realise he has made the wrong choice and come home. Is that dream unlikely?
I'm sorry this is so ranty. I never for a second imagined I would have to write a post like this on here. I see them all the time but I never thought it would be me. I even fail at writing this. Im just a failure. I don't know what to do from here. 