Please help, my head feels in contant turmoil about what to do.
How can I not know if I am happy or not - I feel like I don't know my own mind!!
Been with dp over 2yrs,live in his house with him and rent out my own house .
We have had a really hard relationship with lots of problems with another women and him texting her phoning her etc ( but no actual affair )
and some other strange messages on his phone ( which he tells me he doesnt no who there from) could be true?!
I believe he loves me and since leaving him a couple of months ago, after a couple of weeks of him being so nice to me I went back .
But I have trust issues with him still, and every little thing I'm so hyper sensitive about.
He is trying really hard to make me believe everything is okay, if he gets a text message he tells me to open it to prove nothing bad is happening.
But in my mistrustful mind I just think he texts/calls when he's at work, like he used to. So it all means nothing to me anymore. When he tries to reassure me it feels like my mind just glazes over and it all just sounds like empty words.
I just don't know what to do, sometimes I feel so desperate to go, and find out who I am again but I love this man and am worried about ending something and it's the wrong thing to do!
I'm sure I must come across a insecure weirdo - which is how I feel these days.
But I am honestly not :) or I never used to be anyway :)
I am sorry to ramble on and I really appreciate you taking time to read this, any advice would be so good.