I am so miserable and unhappy and feel utterly trapped. My marriage is crumbling under the severe strain of a whole host of issues and problems. I just dont know what the fuck to do.
We have two children. One has SN and severe behavioural issues, and his behaviour has hugely taken its toll on family life, our marriage, my mental health, my career, my whole life.
I am very socially isolated and have only been able to work in part time, term time only 'mum jobs' for years because of lack of childcare for our child with SN, despite having a promising career beforehand. This means my earning capacity is shit, I am socially isolated and, for the last year, have been clinically depressed.
DH has taken on a big burden, realise, both as main breadwinner and in trying to support me through my illness. I am grateful. But I am so deeply unhappy.
The atmoshere in our home is terrible. DH and I both stressed, tired, unwell, sniping at each other. DS constantly kicking off. Our other child showing signs of being badky affected by the stress and arguments.
I just dont want to do this anymore. I dont want this life :-(