SPs/ sivorcees....what is youe lifw like?

[BigAudioDynamite]

I feel so sad recently. I feel so serious all the time. I was going to say 'its such a struggle'...bur that isn't it really. I have 2 kids and am studying full time, so its a finely tuned juggling act, bur its all positive, its nor doom and gloom

Bur I don't seen to have any levity in NT life. I'm so focused on the practicalities. I am incited to 2 parties tonight. I was going to go to both. But over the last 10 days me, both dcs, dcs dad and my mum have been ill. The result of this is lots of complicated child care rearrangements, driving people around, days off, rushing like a fool all the time, exhaustion. And I have exams.

Even if I could find a person well enough to watch the kids....how the hell can I socialise with a head full of that????? What would I talk about to normal people???

I generally feel ok about concentrating on me and the kids...bur I'm going to end up a lonely crazy old cat lady, aren't i?

I just want to laugh. A big belly felt, care free laugh

It's a rough patch.
It's shit now, but it can only get better. :)

Will it? Will it? It seems to be steadily getting harder

Dd2 is 2 yo.....I'm hoping that after she is 4, it will be easier? But my friends will all have got fed up with drama lama by then I should expect?

I know.
Like you process every day almost like a series of 'tasks'. Just ticking off all of the challenges. Then the next day. Then the next day.

Winter is hardest.

It does get better, but there are peaks and troughs. If you can befriend some people with similar constraints, it gets easier. Nobody really understands unless they have been there.

I have walked that path. I've been in a fab relationship now for a couple of years. Ended up relocating 20 miles from my life (school, work, family), which has created it's own issues. I'm very happy though - just knackered!!

I wish you well. It's lonely, when you have time to remember what life once was.
It's a stepping stone to better things.

Yy it is just a series of tasks. I don't want life to be like that

I think winter does have an impact (i hope). I feel so shrivelled.

Thanks for the well wishes. I do have friends in similar situations...bur I don't want to spend life moaning to each other It kind of exacerbates my feeling of misery. I do have a couple of long standing friends, with whom I can be miserable and happy at the same time IYSWIM?!

I don't know..maybe I just like moaning. I don't like who I am. I want to take it all in my stride, and be capable and content. But reality is I am dishevelled and exhausted and screamn

Hi Big, I know how you feel. I am newly single and in my final year of uni I have been ill for 3 weeks now, and although I was feeling really positive prior to being ill, being sick for this long has made me feel really fecking miserable!