M and I met 12 years ago at uni and became good friends right away. At that time he had a girlfriend at home and I met someone in the first few weeks who I dated for over 2 years. I always thought he was lovely but we were never single at the same time so thought no more of it and just enjoyed being friends.
We stayed in touch and I visited him a couple of years after graduation. We shared a bed, and kissed a few times, but that was all. We then didn'tsee each other again for nearly 6 years but stayed in contact.
He came to stay last weekend and it was like no time had passed at all. We still get on so well and everywhere we went he would hold my hand or put his arm around me. Again, we shared a bed every night and kissed but didn't take things any further. He said lots of lovely things over the weekend, like that he'd always found me attractive and had a soft spot for me, and that he'd been jealous of my uni boyfriend. So far, so good right?
He went home on Monday and I've realised I am completely in love with him. I'm struggling to eat, sleep, concentrate at work etc and am finding it scary as I've not felt like this in such a long time. But I just don't know whether to tell him how I feel as am really worried that he doesn't feel the same and that telling him would ruin our friendship. Also he lives in London and I'm in Devon so that could be a factor in what happens.
So, wise MNers, what should I do now? I have low self esteem and am just terrified that I'll end up heartbroken. Thanks for reading x