Trial separation, will this work or am I crazy??

[OhMyGlob]

The situation is that I don't think I want to be in this relationship anymore.

We have been together for 10 yrs, since I was 17( he was 28) and have 4 children.

I have felt like this for some time, it makes me quite unhappy. He's a lovely bloke and I do love him. Just not enough!?!

We have spilt last year but only for a week and I have in and got back with him.

We basically get on v well, but I have never felt like its been enough. But sometimes I am happy, other times I'm miserable.

I have suggested a temporary split. As we have 4 children, I'm a student and he works part time, neither or us can afford to rent a house. So we are renting a room, when its not our turn with the kids we will sty there (equal split)

My hope is that I will hate it and realise he is the man for me and then live happily ever after!!

Crazy??

My worry is that I will like it, want to split permanently and break his heart and upset my children.

No it's not my life, it's the relationship.
I did go to counselling. After a few sessions the counsellor thought that I have never really been in love with him as a partner, more as an attachment figure (as this was missing for me in childhood).

She asked me how I would feel if he found someone else, I said I wouldn't mind him being happy and having sex with someone else as long as he was still there for me.