hi, hope someone can help as I have no one to ask and no one to turn too.
I have been with my husband for nearly 22 years we have two children a boy and a girl. I am very unhappy. Our marriage has not been easy, but I think I finally want out. I am jealous of the way he dotes on our little girl and I hate the way he swears at our son and calls him stupid - he has Aspergers and ADHD and has been handful, I am no saint I think I am a pretty terrible mother, I shout at them and lose my patience. He calls me tart, whore and bitch in front of them all the time, he says it is a joke but I do not like it. He has always been jealous and we had a very rough patch when we fought all the time but this was years ago and we have just carried on, I bite my Tongue and keep quite cause it is easier then starting an argument but I am ashamed, I should not let him treat the children so and me either. But since our bad patch we lost all our friends as I told them what was going on and he did not want to see them anymore, I also told family and I lost them too, he was never keen on me having friends or family anyway our friends where always joint. I am desperate for some advice I feel I am doing the wrong thing and should just try harder, but then I think NO WAY enough is enough, I can do better and be better on my own. Would love any advice but please do not be too harsh I am very vulnerable at the moment, thanks