So I have been married a year and a half and we have 7 month daughter. My mother is dead and my sisters and family live in Congo. I have a father here but we are not on talking terms as he has new wife so don't care for his kids.
I am in an abusive marriage more emotionally than physical.even though OH has never hit me on plenty occasions he has threatened to beat the shit out of me. I am in cursed every other day and shouted at so much that I am threatened when he walks In from work. I am on maternity and even though I earn barely anything I have been forced to pay my share of the bills leaving me with no money but still abused for doing nothing. I am African and so is he. I am to look after our baby newborn clean the house do all chores in the house also if I don't then I will be abused and shouted at. When he walks in from work I am really scared. I try to look around to make sure all is done to try and avoid a day of shouting. He comes back and yell why is this here why is daughter not bathed. And then it's off to calling me a stupid bitch and so many abusive things I am embarrassed to name them.
He continues by saying where will u go u have no one stupid bitch u deserve nothing. Really hurtful things to my dead mother. My cousins and aunty are actually scared of him and just call him MASTER.
When I was pregnant I was hospitalised I believe it was all the stress as for him being pregnant was not a sickness I should do it all. Now I am so worried he shouts and curses me infront of my girl. He says so many hurtful things and I don't want my baby growing up seeing this. I used to cry so much when he was cursing but now I wait when goes to work and cry. I am so unhappy I am trapped.
I feel bullied daily. This Sunday I slept in and he started yelling how he had not eaten at 1. There was no food in fridge until I get my pay I don't have no money so he was yelling I bought food meaning the fruits he bought and beef. I was saying there are no eggs no nothing and he was just cursing me.
I made a mistake and got a mortgage before baby was born I was bullied into it he cud not get mortgage alone and during that time he was nice he even helped out. I am stuck and I feel ashamed. He is a great liar and always blames things on me. Comes back home and abuses me then sed I can get out but I can't take my baby.
I had a csection and 6 days after giving birth he threw me out naked in just my knickers he pulled on the carpet drugged me out. I stayed out begging to come in. I miss home(Congo) I wish I cud pack and go but how do I start. My life is here I want me and my baby to escape this abuse but have no where to go. We would be homeless. We live in London but wish we could run away so far away.
I don't want to discuss with family as they all(Africans) thinking u should pray stay together marriage is tough. But no I am crying everyday. Sleeping with him I feel raped I don't even want a kiss on cheek.
I am scared of him. I am scared. Please any advise.