Having had an utterly awful, heartbreaking, prolonged, and completely new experience, I turned to MN in my hour of need.
My ex had, for a long time, put me down, showed anger, pushed me around.. Yet I stated thinking 'he's having a hard time, we can work through it'. I watched MN for months; fearful to actually post for fear of confirming all my suspicions about this 'wonderful' man.
The inevitable happened at the end of last year and I left. Admittedly not my decision (the thing I still find difficult, all things considered)...
I came to MN and I finally posted. I finally realised the seriousness of what is been leaving and how much I'd minimised the impact of these- even being scared to write on here as an anonymous woman! I thought I was going mad, I thought it could never happen to me
These first few minutes, hours, days, weeks, are slowly progressing towards a month. Without MN I don't know where I would have been. I faltered, I panicked, I loved, I cried and I grieved.
MN and all the MN'ers have given me hope. I don't know where I'd be without it.
So after a rubbish blue Monday and miserable weather, I would like to thank everyone in an incredibly sickly, slushy way for your honesty - where I didn't want to hear it; for sharing your own experiences of heartbreak - that were equally and more difficult; and for your strength, encouragement and compassion- for an anon stranger.
For those who see themselves and their current relationships in this? Please be honest with yourself. I wish I had been sooner, I could have saved myself a lot of dignity, emotion and sanity.
To everyone who helped, to all those who are experiencing, and all those who have experienced
Here's to us 