hi, have been posting here for a while about my f***d up relationship. life is just horrendous atm and i cant live like this anymore, can feel mysef being obliterated with the physical and emotional abuse. so fed up.
its v hard as i literally have no-one. my parents and inlaws didnt believe me as he portrays such a perfect face to the outside world that people refuse to believe he does the things that he does. am so sick of having no support in rl, wish i had a safe place or an understanding parent who i could turn to for a hug and a guarantee of a safe place.
anyway i feel such a failure that my marriage hasnt worked and FW has pretty much convinced me everything he does is my fault. deep down i know it isnt but will never be able to believe it. even if it was i dont think it deserves a bashing or constantly being called fat etc.
worried about effect on dc's, they cant win, they are badly affected by living in this environment and will suffer witha single mum on benefits too and having to leave their friends, schools etc.
i am in touch with WA and have contacted someone for legal advice. what else do i have to do? i have a spare bag with emergency stuff in, have my own car. just dont have own laptop or much money, have about £600 in a separate account.
the house is a joint mortgage, is there any way for me and kids to stay here? or do we have to leave. problem is if i get an injunction against him, his family have a key and will just come in and try to take the kids, this is what they have threatened if i go to the police. ds is v sensitive dont want him to see police take daddy away.
mind is a mess, any advice and virtual handholding much appreciated.